Saturday, December 6, 2014

17 things i learned by 17

1. People will promise to never leave you. They will. It's okay to be sad when they do.

2. It is always okay to cry. Always. Find a bathroom, bury your face in the pillow and let it out. Cry in the shower. Cry in the car. Cry when you need to. 

3. Boys will flirt with you for a while and ignore you. Then, they will flirt with you some more. It will be confusing. You have every right to stop putting up with it.

4. Pay attention to what people say when they're angry. When you make up and they tell you they didn't mean any of it, know that they did. Also know that they wish they didn't. Forgive them.

5. Never pretend to be someone you're not. If you don't like tea and classic novels, don't act like you do to impress people. If you don't want to wear leather jackets and combat boots, don't wear them to please someone else.

6. People will be mean to you; they will spread lies, call you names and talk about you behind your back. Eventually you will realize that it is petty and stupid and not worth your time. You'll be right. Move on with your life.

7. Your friends will not always be there for you. When you really need to talk, they will sometimes not want to hear it. That's okay. Take a deep breath and remember all the times you felt the same way. Exhale.

8. You will wait and wait and wait for your first kiss and your first date and your first relationship. The anticaption will kill you. You will keep trying to find the right person in everyone you meet. Relax. There's no rush. The best things happen unplanned.

9. Enjoy being young. Love that everything is spontaneous. As you get older, things become more and more scheduled out. Embrace the fact that you aren't there yet.

10. Tell people how you feel. It will be terifying in some cases and gratifying in others. It will never create relationships and ruin them. But speak your mind, even if your voice shakes , because your thoughts may never otherwise be heard.

11. Sleep. If you go to bed late. If you're still tired when you wake up, go back to bed. If you can't stay awake during the day, take a nap. Sleeping is a foolproof way of gettinh rid of your problems for a little while. Utilize it.

12. Talk to people. Talk to your sister about the guy she likes. Talk to your mum about her childhood. Talk to your dad about his favorite books. Talk to your grandparents about their families. Talk to your friends, talk to your pets, talk to cute waitress at the restaurant. Learn things from them. Be inspired.

13. Always bring a sweater. Even if you think it won't be cold.

14. Try new things. Eat a lot of food, try a new kind of juice, swatch up the way you dress. You never know what you might end up loving. Life can get boring. Mix up a bit.

15. Take care of yourself. Wash your hair with good smelling soap you love. Eat fruits and vegetables. Drink lots of water. Go for long walks in pretty parks

16. School is important. Try your hardest. If you don't get something, as for help. Do your homework. Show your teachers that you're willing to work hard and when it comes time to apply college,you'll be glad you did.

17. There will always be someone prettier, smarter, funnier or more popular than you. The beauty of it is that it isn't a competition.

- 17 things i learned by 17 (via fearlessknightsandfairytales)

Last but not rlly last

Izz and i ended our spm on 25th nov 2014 whilst ain and sheda ended theirs a day earlier bcs both of them didnt seat for Biology. They dropped bio early this year because they have zero interests in whatever related to nature, how organs work and anything related to bio. Both of them took bio last year because forced by the school autorities. 

And yeah, biology was the last subject on spm. 

Izz and i didnt took any pictures on the last day of school because we're missing the other two; incomplete. Plus, we're too excited for real livesss (no longer a school kid)

Lets consider this is the last photo we took whilst wearing the school uniform. Rip school uniform, you will be missed 

the beginning...

Wow, its been quite a long time since the last post. SPM has ended!! No responsibility means I supposed having more time for blogging but DANG I blog nothing since SPM ended. Bobby is a weirdo.

25th December 2014 was the last day I sit for SPM meanwhile the last day ever I am being a school kid. HOLLA I'm an adult already.

Glancing to the lists I made on 'What to do after SPM' made me laughing the ass off. HA HA HA. Sembang kencunk br0.

Actually, so many things I've done after SPM ended and so much stories to tell. Obviously, not in this post because it will be so messed up.

I'll post more posts later on. tata

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Mockinjay and one ringgit

Its been awhile since the last movie night. I pretend this movie night as a pre-celebration for spm. Chillax only two days left until i can verily celebrate the day. Huahuahua. Hey world im a grown up girl, dont mess with me anymore. I'm no longer a kid.

The movie i watched tonight was the hunger games: mockingjay part 1. I did watch the two previous series which are the hunger games and catching fire. But i didnt finish catching fire because i had some chores to do; house chores zz. Ruefully my brother didnt record that movie and in the meantime i lost the cd my sister bought few months ago. 

And today i watched the consequence of catching fire. Honestly i didnt understand that movie well. My mom wasnt a fan of sci-fic related movie so she dissed the movie but she didnt sleep in the cinema - like i did. Wahaha its crystal clear that i slept in the cinema AGAIN today. Wahaha embarassing! What a waste. I'm pretty sure no one wants to bring me to cinema anymore. I always sleep in the cinema. I mean who can resist such a cozy and dark place like that. I usually go for a movie after lunch or dinner; happy tummy + the coziness of cinema + the sound of movie = too perfect to sleep. I didnt have any problems with noisiness, despite the fact that i am a heavy sleeper, i also can easily fall asleep in a chaotic place. I also easily fall asleep infront of tv instead of in my bed. Kahkahkah.

And i slept again while watching mockingjay. 

Too lazy to edit

Our show was at 9.40 pm. We reached aeon CS at around 9.00pm. Then had our dinner at KRR.


The only sibling left hehe

Momma hates camera

You-can-throw-up-now kind of selfie

Anyone needs model for an xxl sized apparel. Do contact me.

Shawl : my sister's
Top: FOS
Cardigan: carnival at malacca, 10 buckssssss onlyy
Watch : an abandon watch in my house, found it when i was cleaning up the room. It didnt even ticking.
Bag: Nichii
Blue jeans: sogo (dont know the brand)((too lazy to take a look))

After the movie, i went to the autopay machine to pay for the parking. I brought a ringgit because the first hour no payment needed, after first hour , you have to pay the parking. Easy man, just a dollar no matter how long you park your vehicle. My aeon card was sick. So i had no choice except for pay using real money ((do fake money exist?! Haha)). 

The chinese girl infront of me only brought a piece of red RM 10 note and two pieces of green RM 5 notes. I was ecstatic because my sister once paid with RM5 note and the due balance was returned in coins. I love coinss. 

The girl infront of me firstly put the green note then rejected, after that she tried her red note, also rejected, then she inserted the another green note, the machine didnt accept her note. I only bring one blue RM1 note which i am very sure the machine will accept my blue note undoubtly. Then i told her that i think the machine didnt accept any notes except for blue ones. To help her, i hurriedly walk fast to my car and asked mom for a ringgit, the new one ringgit note and fed the machine. Holy crap it didnt receive any new one ringgit note. At last i put my first one ringgit into the machine. And tadaahh, finally the machine being tame. The girl, lol not really girl, more like lady around early 20s thanked me. 

Its my turn to pay the parking fare. I tried all my new one ringgit into that machine, obviously it rejected every note i inserted. Kahkahkah. Then i asked mom for some coins, haiyaa the coins section was blocked. After around 3 minutes, my mom finally found an old one ringgit. And tadaa i save! 

So today i finally helped people in need. I am so happy. I'm not intended to show off upon this very small help i gave to other, i just wanted to share to my blog.
Regarding how significant i felt right now. Finally, i saved a stranger from stuck in aeonz. Ha ha ha. Lol.

This maybe look very small. A ringgit today seems valueless, i mean, what can you get within just a ringgit. Back then when i was 7, my sister, neighbours and i will go to each house with the ticket of 'beraya' whilst everyone knew our prime intention was collecting duit raya. The standard amount people would give was 50cent, so when certain house we attended gave us a ringgit, we would be extremely happy. Sometimes, some big hearted people gave us 2 ringgit and we automatically labelled them as rich and nice.

But nowadays, when my brother came home after beraya to strangers' house who gave him a ringgit, he would nag and unhappy.

"Eleh seringgit je, kedekot."

One ringgit means nothing to him, and also to most of his peers.

But still, one ringgit today can still save you from not stucking whole night at the aeon car park.

Thats all for now.


Saturday, November 22, 2014

am i a directioner or am i a directioner not ?!

I swear Night Changes by One Direction is the best music video my eyes ever witnessed on. OMG I AM TURNING INTO A TOTAL DIRECTIONER I MEAN LIKE THE REAL DIRECTIONER who willing to quarrel with others just to stand up with the fact that One Direction is the best boyband ever, produced good music, the members are talented - regardless the fact some people said that they are just 5 good looking lads with zero talent. THEY REALLY CAN SING.

Omg someone is really has something to do with fangirling and one direction.

I cannot brain this.

I cannot believe what i was doing. I watched Night Changes repeatedly!!! 

After watching that video, i felt like i really  dating one direction. awwhhh.

One Direction started being really famous in my country on about late 2011. I was 14 and i never understand why people (girlsss) really like them. As for me they are just an ordinary boyband - until i myself be one of them. Kahkahkah.

But nahh, no one knows.


Well i am always be the most outdated one. People start fangirling over one direction since 2011 and honestly i be like a ''real'' directioner this year. Ameera introduced me on 2012, but those time i didnt owe any smart phones or tabs, i depend solely on laptop to watch youtube which was pretty complicated and took a lot of time. That time, my time is the real gold, i dont mind about what happened around the world, i have books and pmr to deal with. How nice were i back then. Would be nicer if i practise it along my spm year. Ahh whatever, past is past. 

On 2013, ameera went to boarding school. One thing i said to her that i will miss her when she's not around was WHO WANTS TO FANGIRLING OVER ONE D WITH ME ANYMOREEEE. Ameera responsible for turning an innocent me (you can throw up) into a satan. Lol jk. Ameera took the responsible for turning me into a directionerrr. But during 2013, i was just  a normal girl with a little interest upon one direction. I was just a fan of their songs. But not chronic yet because ameera wasnt around and no one took her part. Then i introduced one direction to izz. Forced her to listen to every single one direction song. I just introduced, she did her job well by keep listening to them.

I still remember last year, izz and i sat at the corner of the class karaoke one d songs while did add maths work. I miss that. And our fav songs are taken and moments. Sometimes i brought my phone and subscribed the daily internet ((that time i didnt know the wifi's pw)), opened youtube and sing along. I miss that a lot. 


Suddenly both izz and i are overly attached to one d. But neither of us admit it. The best part about being directioner this year was the day fireproof released. I have no idea why i like that song so much. 

but still, night changes mv is the best mv everrrrrr. 

Oh yeah, and i still remember last week izz and i were having like a pouring heart session- about one direction. Well we did it quite a numerous of times lately (lol as long as i remember was only twice). Wahh i never thought one direction is going to be the only reason i talk to someone. Kahkahkah. People change, remember? Just like the night changes. Cehh.

And i responsible for turning innocent izz (?!) into a bad ass directioner. Lol. 

Wait, izz are you a directioner?! 

Whatever, you are still a directioner to me.

Oh and Izz got PLKN. Cant reach her for about 3 freaking months. WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME?! WHO WANTS TO LISTEN TO MY WORDS ANYMORE REGARDING how perfect one Direction is, how good their musics are and how jaw dropping their faces are?! Who? Tell me who?

I dont think ameera is still a directioner, shes more like a belieber- her boarding school friends influenced her. Hahaha

Is this a joke but why all my directioner friends have to leave me?


One Direction spoils me really well. They made me feel like i am beautiful even when i am not. I am very happy for their songs, i feel like they are talking to me. I feel like they know me. They boost my self-confidence to the level i dont mind going out with wet hair- very sloppy. 

They made me leave my books, for instance now. I was studying chemistry but then they knocked my memory and made me watch Night Changes mv. And yeah , i couldnt stop hitting the replay button and whatsapped izz non stop- i know she already hit the sack. I wanted her day tomorrow starts with one direction. Ha ha ha

But then zayn quoted that , "intelligence is sexy." So i have no choice except for burning the midnight oil and avoid study at eleventh hour. Plus promised myself to break a leg for spm (is this idiom contest) ((because zayn likes intelligent person, but for sure i'm not studying because of Zayn. zayn is only a contemporary interest while education is future)).

Thats all for now.


Monday, November 17, 2014

#3 SPM update (4-days diary version)

Friday, 14th Nov 

Basically did nothing besides watching Konsert AF repeatedly, i dont know whats my problem and that was embarrassing. At night, watched maharajalawak and non-stop complimenting on how perfect fazura is. I once met her at alamanda 4 years ago. She's purrrrrrfect. 

Noted: what is SPM?!

Saturday, 15th Nov

Woke a little bit late then go straight hit the tv. I couldnt remember what i watched. Had some breakfast and continue to my bed, had some chats with izz on whatsapp- pouring out my heart onto discrimination towards....... Okay lets not talk about this cuz this one is laughable. 

K fine.


One direction.

Ha ha ha.

And also figured out that the Night Changes is about ...


After that, do pay a visit to (little) boy next door whom just finished from khatan. 

Khatan- a proper word for sunat and....

Ahh idk.

My qtpie

Then continue sleeping while momma cooked nasi lemak. 

Woke up then ate then lying again.

Noted: i should study for account but nahh i still one day to do so. Starting tomorrow, i'm going to change (is anyone has any other opt except for vomit looking at my attitude?)

Sunday, 16th Nov

Mun's birthday. Wished her at 1 am. 

Responsible completed.

Woke early and also didnt study. Cant remember what i did. Until 6. I started study at 6.

Then watched mentor legend at 9.30.

At 10.30, i was watching paku- a horror movie. WALAH THATS A BEAUTIFUL MOVIE. A brilliant movie produced by this country after so so long. I was amazed!!

Until forgot to study.

Then, i forced my mom to accompany me studying at the very last minute. 

But alhamdulillah, i managed to handle. I can do every question very well.

Monday , 17th Nov

was the last person reached the exam hall. Quite nervous and panicked but hey its only paper 1. 

The questions were quite easy.

Then, paper 2 - where the miseries start.



But i still managed to answer all the questions but...

In a very inconfident way.

Right after paper 2 ended, i found that everyone was in the same boat with me. 

May the grade drop down, i dont mind getting an A minus. Seriously, i dont mind.

The face...

Uwaaa. I vowed myself to focus on next paper which is Add Math. 

No more hanky-panky.

For real though.


Guess who is this.

Clue: miley cyrus, hunger games

Hahaha lets not make its difficult.



okay, at least this made me laugh... no matter how insincere my laughing is.



Saturday, November 15, 2014

Random talk

1. Suddenly, anxiety attacked me when i watched spm tutor tv on lisa surihani's tips for spm. Omg i'm scared. Okay lets not talk about spm because that is nerve breaking. Dup dap dup dap.

2. I have totally ditch my twitter and  deleted instagram app on my phone (plus my 16gb phone couldnt bear too much, its a SIGN! New pHoneee!). But i still hang on facebook to keep on touch with current issues, i dont want to be such a total douchebag for knowing NOTHING what happens around the world. Furthermore, everything is knowledge and might help me broadened my mind (and somehow broadened my shoulder at the meantime hahaha)

3.  Another viral video i found early this morning was a 3 minutes duration video a 9 year old boy singing the song relakan jiwa while playing a guitar. I was amazed. He's so freaking talented and has such an amazing voice. Then, i hooked through the comments , wanted to see what people think about that video. And you guessed it right, people are bashing that small boy. Saying that he should recite quran instead of singing. Oh mayn! You are not with him 24/7, how did you know he shouldnt recite quran. Omg! I just cant. How negative these people are. Ish ish ish.

4. Thats all for this post. Really hope you guys living a beautiful life <3

Friday, November 14, 2014

Fried meehoon

This morning, i was feeling sad because my plan wanted to follow my parents to hukm was canceled. Sobs. Even worse, i denied my girls study group. Sobs. Now, i'm just lying on the floor figuring out on what to do next. 

Ruefully, i cried. I felt betrayed. 

To not let sadness taking over me and ruined my friday, i was thinking to do things that make me happy. Enjoying my friday. So i cooked. Fried meehoon. Kohkohkoh

Cooking is my current passion. I love spending hours in the kitchen, cutting onions, etc. Idk why but thats make me happy.

So heres ingredients for fried meehoon

- onions
- garlic
- chilies
- dry chilies
- chicken stock
- scramble egg
- meehoon
- tamarind juice
- cooking caramel
- soy sauce
- salt
- cooking oil

These are the only pictures i took hajaha.

Idk what the entire purpose of this post actually because im not even share the recipe, i just shared the ingredients kohkohkohZ

Kbye :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

just another emopost

based on ancestors, the ones who are easily sweat around the nose area indicates that they are having a strong unwelcome emotion which everyone wanted to avoid, jealousy. Jealousy is a killer. Trust me. pretended to be happy is not an easy task, unless you are chuck bass; but if you are lucky enough and have blair waldorf by your side. let me tell you something, you are so lucky. you are so lucky if someone really understands you, can read you through your eyes, knowing what you really want without you telling them, knowing your favorites things, not laughing when you pour your heart out, complimenting you in an appropriate way; not treating you like a joke, be there with you anytime , understands your mood swings, bear hearing any craps you want to voice out, do not question you why you like an artist you disguise last week and now you fangirling over him/her, asking a question on things you love repeatedly (honestly, i like it when people keep popping out with topics i enjoy, eg: do i look like a cat with an uneven pair of eyes?) and losing a stupid argument with you even when clearly that you are wrong.

hahaha, i actually wanted to make a bm post, but its so awkward because when i wrote in malay, the probability on me cursing in malay is 0.99999999 which means so inappropriate. its okay, im still going ti continue writing on this trashy piece. lol why i live life like i have a million of readers/fans or people who really wanted to know about my life updates. whatever, i do enjoy myself, thats more than enough.

call me stupid but i enjoy repeating doing things i like or love.

i hate to sound so emotional, i hate people looking me sad. i wanted people to know me as a strong girl, who doesnt know what is sad, who cant define sad, but i fail. no matter how hard ive tried, i still fail. im a girl, and girl deals with a lot of emotions. i mean, guy also dealing with their emotions, but girls deal a mixed emotions. in just 5 minutes, we girl may feel happy sad confuse and lonely. who wants to go through it? but we girls have had no choice, we girls cant control our feelings, just like guys who cant control their lust. at this circumstance, we all are same.

 we choose our own fortune and then call them fate.

looking up at the judging-related quote, at first i literally have no ideas that whatever we do in life, people might judge. by this context, judge means criticize everything you do. long ago, my mind set that, people only judge you when you did something wrong. as i grew up, that thoughts were changed. i realize that, whatever you do, not everyone is going to love hence they find for your mistakes and starts judging and start criticizing. and who we are to stop them from not voicing our the opinions. 

expert said,

do not aware of what you see,hear and talk, do aware of what are you thinking.

you are not what you see, you are not what you hear, you are not what you talk ; actually you are what you think. the things you think made who you are today. are you happy with what are you thinking? or, are you happy with what you are today? if you are happy and satisfy with what you are today, probably, you are thinking the right things. probably you are having a healthy mind. or, you are just another ignorant human on earth.


Monday, November 10, 2014

My phone & medical leave (mc)

Last Friday, i went to school for an extra private-like class with my one and only beloved bio teacher, pn noorzehan while most of our batchmates were still making love with their pillows ( okay, what is this?!). I was so excited, well to take some pictures and stuffs like that, wanted to enjoy school with izz because i am completely sure that i will miss the school with every fibre in my body soon. 

So i brought along my phone.

After tht, i found that my phone wasnt even on. I already charged my phone before i stepped out my house, and thats made me freaking scared. I just dont know, what my life would be without this human-creation things named phone. My phone is my life, my best companion! 

Then, i hit the on button, hold it for a couple of minutes, and my phone wasnt give any sign that its going to turn on. I am was so sad, there are plenty of photos that i havent had any time to transfer to the thumbdrive yet, all those photos i took during classes, all the memories! Aarghh, i just feel like crying.

Two days later...

My mom found her old phone, she wanted to transfer my sim card into that phone, as a final try, i tried hold the on button and WALAH! I was over the moon when i discovered that my phone is finally can turn on! 


Thanks to Allah.

Tomorrow is sejarah paper and i am pretty nervous. 

Just pray me to do well. Amin.

P/s : i really find aman af2014 is really cute and he deserved second place wahaha. 



Saturday, November 8, 2014

5 Things that Makes Me Happy

Well, life is not treating me well these days. I have had to deal with 1001 problems involving both physical and mental; which is so hard to resist since at the same time, I also in the midst of SPM. But, lets get positive, this is life. These things shaped me into a person I am today and future. I must always get in the positive boat and lying to myself that 'all is well'. I watched a movie just now, hero himself claimed that humans hearts are coward, they'd rather do things that MUST end up perfectly. This is why people around the world enjoyed happy endings, without realizing every end meets a new beginning. I cant believe that 'm just 17 but I have had to deal with A LOT OF THINGS most teenagers on my age don't. Is that makes me unique in my own way? You judge.

Without any further due, here are 5 things that makes me happy at these moments.

1. Gossip Girl

I know I am outdated, but I still love Gossip Girl. Gossip Girl forever. 
Whenever I am dealing with unstable emotions, I will straight away find for my laptop and hit Gossip Girl. I love the way characters in Gossip Girl dealing with their problems and emotions. Such an inspiration! And my favourite characters are Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass. Oh my God, they are so sweet together! 

2. Sleep

I forgot everything as I hit the sack! Most of the time, I will wake up with a brand new motivation and spirit! Therefore, I am a brand new leaf. Am I? 

3. Eat

Another reason on the series '1001 Reasons Why I Am Fat'


A serenade escape from reality.

5. Money

Ahaha, if I have a lot of money, of course I will be so happy as all my problems right now because of money. KAHKAHKAh

Friday, November 7, 2014

Life in a Day #1 - 6th November 2014

This writing session is my most awaited event of the day! Ask me not, lately I just feel like blogging. Probably because ;

1. I cannot post on Dayre. No words can describe how I appreciate Dayre for letting me write in an organize way. May Dayre's inventor bestow with a lot of blessings from the Almighty. No, I'm not disguising Blogger, you are the best since 5-ever, but I love changes because life is all about dealing with changes - you named it. 

Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them -- that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.    

- Lao-tzu

2. Blog-walking passing through a numerous number of famous blogs is now my current hobby. I love to read their stories, experiences and life's updates - plus they were writing in a very interesting way, using a very simple and malay-oriented style, with no a splash of hypocrisy , very humble , straight forward and honest. How I wish I could apart of them, but then the reasons I made a blog are totally different from them. At first place, I made blog because I want to improve my writing skills, practising my brain to think from a different perspectives and to fake myself. Yes, the blog version of me is so much fake, if you know me in person , I guaranteed you must laughing your ass off right now. I filter almost everything before I posted something on blog. But its okay, at least I do have an amazing blog life instead of my reality. Lol why I sounded so like typical-highschool-dramaqueen-which-is-so-emotional-and-deserve-a-step-right-on-her-face. My life is fine, just dealing with a normal ups and downs in life - because its LIFE.

A lot of things I learnt today, and today was such a busy day for me (at last I felt significant).

Early in the morning, i woke to read agama because its agama paper and i'm not completely prepare; but Alhamdulillah i managed to answer all the questions. Its now between me,the examiner and the Almighty. Then, before subuh i was taking a bath. Honestly its because i once read that people who taking bath before subuh tend to have a low risks of having diseases, and its one of the ways to be slim kahkahkah <- --- prime intention. At 6, i made myself an egg with toast , OKAY THIS IS AN ACHIEVEMENT , I FINALLY MADE IT THE WAY IT SUPPOSED TO BE AND THAT WAS SUPER YUMMEH 

Believe me, its literally not as overcooked as you see. In fact, they arr so delicious. Don't judge a book from its cover!

After agama paper 1, i found out that coney dog was run out of stock. 

Ha ha ha.

After school, i was going to maksu's house, visiting her. She just got back from hospital and im not given a chance to pay a visit to her. And i went there wearing my snobbish baju cek0la. Kah kah kah.

Okay when i put everything in words, its not sound THAT BUSY but... hmm nevermind. I appreciate my life- eventhough how unvibrant my life is.


With my super sloppy baju sekolah... and a headscarf that pretended to be a bracelet - you fail bro, everyone knew you are not a good actor!

And a shameful selfie (gonna delete soon)

My brother was eating in the car on our 15-minutes-journey to maksu's house. Thats how starving he was! Lol no, he's always like that! Yes, its totally inappropriate to eat in a moving car and obviously our family doesnt practised a strict rule- but then, who cares?! As long as nothings harmed , everthings fine. Plus, it was so adventurous to eat nasi campur in a moving car kahkahkah. 

I'm answering the quiz, which characters in gossip girl you are. And guess who i got?! OBVIOUSLY I'M BLAIR WALDORF - and i deserve a Chuck Bass. Huhuhu.

Take the quiz 

Thats all, bye bye and have a great life ahead.

You know you love me


Wednesday, November 5, 2014

#2 SPM update + random muse

1. Alhamdulillah, Maths was quite easy and I really hope for an A+, Insha Allah if Allah will.

2. Tomorrow is agama paper and i'm so scared!!

3. This is nothing relates to SPM but i just want to tell you. Have you ever know the policy "customers always right?". I will never ever understand on how hawkers could treat their money ((customers)) in a very disappropriate manner. I mean c'mon, everyone has their own problems, but when it comes on facing your customers, do paste your sincerest-eventhough-its-fake face. A little common sense doesnt worth a fortune.

4. But its okay. At first, i felt like punching him right on his face, but then i tried to put myself in his shoes; try to understand (plus its SPM, i mustnt create any chaos situation). At the same time, i tried to find my mistakes, and i found that i was a little bit impatient and too bossy. Alhamdulillah! I really hope to not repeat the same mistake all over again and try to be a better person in future; and try to not cheesed off easily. 

5. Just feel like sharing on what i ate today

Breakfast I (6.57 am) - bread and peanut butter

Breakfast II (9.32 am) - coney dog ( oh mayn, they are scrumptious!! I definitely going to buy the same exact coney dog tommorow! Why i discovered such a good thing in school when only about a fortnight left until school session ends. Sobs hard)

Pre-lunch (12.44 pm) - 2 hotdogs, 1 nugget ( like always, not hungry but just decided to munch something - 1001 reasons why i am fat)

Lunch ( 1.24 pm) - nasi lemak and fried egg oh and 2 pisang goreng and 1/2 vadai

Dinner ( 7.18 pm) - nasi , sardine, telur dadar and crispy ikan masin - kampungs alert!

6. I felt sorry for the 16 year old Raziqin's family. My deep condolence to his family. Its must be very hard for his family to go through in such situation. Allah loves him more :'(

7. I really think that Blogger is the most evergreen social network ever. Bravo!

Semangat Nasionalisme tahap 2

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Spm update #1

Right now I'm in the midst of SPM war. Don't be shock on HOW CAN ONES STILL UPDATING HER VIEWERLESS BLOG?!?! Its english today and i'm practising my writing skills, for the last time.


I never believe the effectiveness of yogurt on smoothing the digestive system until i experienced it myself. I woke at 4, prepare for literature component. And i had yogurt as a snack with coffee. Oh mayn thats not a good combination!!! 

They forced me to go to toilet every 15 minutes!! Wahaha.

Now i learnt my lesson, and its gonna be useful after spm ended because my plan on getting 'dream body' gonna be easy!

Till then, 

Pray for me .


Sunday, November 2, 2014


I don't know why I can't post on Dayre. 

Oh hey tomorrow, 3rd November 2014, the battle between me and SPM starts.

Speak no more because i am toooo nervous and scared! 

Yesterday , I went to Pustaka Rakyat hooking for some stationary for SPM. Everytime i go to pustaka rakyat, i always hoped to not meet anyone i know because thats a.w.k.w.a.r.d..... 

But then, i had had no choice. Thank God yesterday was final piala Malaysia so pustaka rakyat was not too crowded.

The other purposes why i went to pustaka rakyat are 
- laminate my spm slip 
- photostat acc's skema

Going to pustaka rakyat for photostat was my last ever choice bcs 

1. In my mind, "dont ever ever photostat at pustaka rakyat bcs cost too much"

2. The workers are pretty cocky

3. The workers didnt understand me ((who ever does?!))

4. Its hard to explain to them. 
Evidence: i used to ask one of the workers to bind my acc's assignment, and the product is wreck. Not like a total wreck , but it seems nothing like i wanted it to be.

5. I lost my pustaka rakyat's card - 2 years ago. 

And jyeahhh

Everything has changed...

-The workers now are better 

- its took only one minute for me to explain on what i wanted and the verdict is... VaVav00m

- i laminated for RM 1.80 while izz RM2.00

I literally think its gonna take a whole night long for my photostat's items to really finish but then, my thoughts fade. I made the worker wait for payment, kahkahkah.

It is because...


Okay i was waaayy too excited than i supposed.

I looked exhausted and... 'educated'. Well izz said that. Blatantly because i was wearing specs. Hmm my contacts decided to hate me.........

Oh and thats not a crumple shawl, its actually a normal shawl which i too lazy to iron it. This is why i love fashion, you can wear anything and claimed it as fashion.

I always go to pustaka rakyat when i was a school kid back then ((hehe no longer a school kid)). Every visit is a total rush. Everytime i step , i will just find my way to the certain sections. I dont have time to venture all over pustaka rakyat passionately ((omg what is this!!))

Yesterday, i had a chance to do so while waiting for my stuffs. 

I know maybe everyone of you who ever been to pustaka rakyat knew that pustaka sold such a cute paper tape. AWWH. 

But dont have any chance to buy it.




And do pray for me .

I would like to appologize to everyone for my wrongdoings. Please know that i love all of you, may all of us find our ways and meet in the Jannah soon.


Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Dont worry be happy

1. Holla!! My writing skills R geTtiN w0rse ((ever it been good?!)) but whateVes i'M stilL gOin tO cOntinUe.

2. I know i supposed not to be here, clock is ticking, endlessly. 

3. So today i was scolded by my (secretly favourite) teacher for knowing nothing. Not surprise! I always scolded by her for my super lazy and unproductive attitude. Ha ha ha. I dont know i still like her even if she hates me huhU. Thats not the point. Today i discovered something, on, how selfish someone could be. But hey, not hard feeling cuz i get used to it. And somehow thats LIFE!

4. Never tell anybody about your major (weird) crush. This year such a pretty weird year for me. I got such a HUGE crush on a human panda (lol wut). And thats weird, peculiar , et cetera. If you have any crush(es) better keep it to yourself or just tell someone you trusted, unless you want to get hurt.  But then again, i get used to it. 

5. Don't procrastinate your solat.

6. Dont wori be hepi ;) ;) ;) ;*

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Quick update

1. Okay hi, this is time stealing.

2. 22 days left and I'm in a good mental state. 

3. I loath the fact I am not ready

4. I lost my contact lens ... IN MY EYES. I desperately hope for every fibre of my body that the contacts is not in my eyes right now. Ok here is the story, i was too exhausted i slept with contacts and the next ITS FREAKIN DISAPPEar. Since i'm a heavy sleeper ((like everyone tells)) ((people keep contrasting me with Anna Frozen)) , i really really really hope the contacts slip out anywhere ((dang gurl its NEWWW!))

5. Graduation day done! Successly! But im not satisfied. Yeah bitch im fat go fuck yourself! 

6. Aww

7. I'm a star.

8. Forever.

9. No matter how fat i am

10. I'm still a star. Giant star perhaps.

Hashtag teaser


Monday, September 15, 2014


Well I always wanted to wear a hijab.
But I'm afraid
Lack of confidence
People don't look at me same anymore
People will shower me with "Whys" and "Hows"
I don't know whether I'm fully ready
Whether I'm really doing this for Allah the Almighty
Or I'm following the trend?
I just don't know

I'm scared
What will I reopen my hijab
What will the people say?
Imagine the reaction I got from people around me
I must be a joke to certain group of people

I'm afraid I'm not strong enough
To do this 
To wear a hijab
Even though its a must in Islam
But I didn't take it as a compulsory

I don't take hijab a serious matter
I googled on 'is wearing hijab a compulsory' , 'am i still got chance to be in paradise even when i'm not wearing hijab' - and a story that convincing me is on how a prostitute enter the paradise only after she gave a thirsty dog water to drink
And a story of a lady doing all what Almighty asked her to do but then she acted ruthless to a cat - and that mistake drag her to neraka jahanam.
To be frank, i was convinced with it. 
I'm fine with it.

I know one day i'm going to wear a hijab.
Its a must.

Alhamdulillah the day finally came.

And I'm happy with the new me :)

Well I only took selfies because no one wants to take pictures for me. Uwaa :'((

Monday, September 8, 2014

She will be Loved by Maroon 5 (lyrics)

*breath in*
*breath out*

1. I like Adam Levine.
2. I love his voice.
3. I like his appearance.

Okay wtv. 

Literally I just heard this song 2 minutes and fall for itz. I love da lyricsz. Uwaa when can someone sang me this song.



Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow I want more

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You come anytime you want, yeah.

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls


Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh.
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background:]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah, yeah.

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

20 facts about me (?!)

Hello. Since everyone on instagram now is doing this "20 facts about me", i decided to make one as well. And you rock it right, no one tag me to do so, i'm doing this willingly (no one cares).

1. My name is Sharifah Nuraina bt Syed Nahar. I bet you know that my nickname is Bobby. I grow up people calling me Bobby. When i was 7, i am ashamed with that Bobby, i introduced myself as Sharifah. It all started when i was 10, i decided to stand out with Bobby. All my family members, relatives and close friends call me Bobby. Honestly i think it makes me raRe and unique. Sharifah and Nuraina are quite a typical name, so Bobby is out of the blue. And i can also bet that some of my relatives dont even know my real name. Ha ha. Surprise not surprise!

2. I do have an instagram account but i decided to not active. Why? Because i'm not really good in taking picture, well i'm not a professional photographer - frankly speaking, not even want to be one. Just kidding! I always wanted to be good in taking pictures, i want people to hire me taking pictures on their big day. I have that passion but what can i do, i dont have that talent. And i hate all those instant ""professional photographers"" who solely rely on filters. Ha ha. No heart feeling, i am jealous with you guys because even though there are numerous apps that offer various kind of filters, I STILL CANT MANAGE TO GET ONE THAT SUIT ME RIGHT. Therefore, i am jealous and be an anonymous on instagram. But it made me feel wanted when some people particularly asked for my instagram account. I. Felt. Significant. Thank you, may God bless you 😘

3. I still find its funny when people describe me as 'arrogant'. I get that a lot from my relatives. My uncle afraid that i am an antisocial teen who is lonely because he said i am an antisocial and hardly making friends. Ha ha ha. If you are my school mates , you must find this is so ridiculous. I am tooooo loud at schoool and way too quiet when i surrounded with relatives. Am i a bipolar?
The other day, my sister came told me about this one girl asked her why i am so arrogant. The way i talk, the way i stare and the way i act are so cocky. Oh mayn, it was unintended! Perhaps i forgot my spec or contacts , I DONT EVEN SEE YOU GUYS. I AM A SHORT-SIGHTED WITH -5.25 , WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO BE LIKE WHEN I WAS NOT WITH MY SAVIOUR NAMED SPECTACLES OR CONTACTS. Once you know me, you will realize on how wrong your judging skills. 

4. I'm growing, physically (too obvious to state) and mentally. I experienced change every day. I feel change. You have no idea. I think more often than i used to. I'm learning. I maybe not a genius but i love to learn. Please dont be too narrow, learning is not the only in school. Every day we learn. Every single day. The difference is whether you realize or not. How to realize? When you realize that you are learning, you will make mistakes ; making mistakes are compulsory. No matter how hard you try , you cant help yourself to be a mistakes-free human. Live life beautifully, so learnt from it. When you realize that you are learning, you will not repeat the same mistakes. You also know that there are ZILLIONS of mistakes to be done in order to be a better creature, thats why you will never ever repeat the same mistakes.

5. I love the sound of waterfall,rainfall and river. Its so calming and relaxing. It kept me sane from this insane world.

6. I dont have sixth sense. Seriously, i dont have that INSTINCT which can tell good from bad, which can read peoples mind, etc. Seriously i dont! So i'm sorry if i hurt you bad because i cant feel what you feel, i dont realized that you are hurt. I'm so sorry .

7. I never have a boyfriend.

8. I love cartoons a lot!! I dont mind spending my entire living with spongebob, chibi maruko chan, doraemon, etc.

9. I dont like anime. bcs its annoying!

10. I'm a heavy sleeper. 

11. Wow each point is getting shorter!

12. I swear people who are wearing hijab are so beautiful. I love seeing woman in hijab. And hardly wish my dream on wearing hijab will come true. I've tried to wear hijab, and.... i love the concept. 

13. I am a sensitive person. And i harshly wish that i am a heartless and feelingless. I tend to cry for everything especially on hindi movie. I just cant!

14. I hate seeing people suffering - from anything. I can cry a river. I never know that i am so soft-hearted hahaha.

15. I am patriotic. I maybe dont show it out, but i am! Ask my family members they'll know!

16. I am romantic. Even though i never showed to anyone, but i know i am romantic. I love flowers! And my fav is SUNFLOWER 🌻

17. I may eat your food.

18. I always wanted to bake but i dont have an oven.

19. My life motto is "i will always get what i want". How serious? Okay its like this, if i really want something, i will work for it day and night until i get it. But well in life, we cant always get what we want, if what i want are too big to be true, i will hold on and say i no longer want it. So its a win-win.

20. I always pray to Allah on making me rich, beautiful, classy, slim, and destined me a good soulmate. 

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Loving myself

Tell me how can i not love myself when all i have is me?

When no one there for me , during my darkest times , all i have is me

When i tried to explain something and no one willing to listen, the only one who convince me is me.

How can i be not selfish when no one teach me how to not be one ; i am an affectionist -by myself.

Why are you still wondering why i pamper myself much when i should work that ass out to do something i supposed to do? 

Because all i have is myself.

I hurt myself, wishing for someone i called companion to convince me, but no.

I heal myself.

I'm growing up. I feel the maturity in me now. 


Just laugh.

Take me as a joke. Go tell the whole world. Make fun of me. 

I beg you pls do so.

But i'm not going to do that for myself. 

Bcs at the end of they day, no
matter how many people surround me, no matter how chaotic the circumstance, i learnt that i need to be alone. I have to spend my time with the only one who can accepts all my flaws, not judging me, even though sometimes i feel like knocking my head to the nearest wall, i still love me. 

All i know at the end of the day, i myself told myself on what to do. I love arguing with myself because whether i win or lose, i feel satisfied.

Why should i pleased people who never in once in their life thinking about my priority. 


I dont need toxic people. 

Saddened, 80% of people i know are toxic.

But what can i do?

And somehow i am thankful to be surrounded with these toxic people who are always spreading hate over love, told negative than positive , etc because i realized they wanted me to fail. Without further thinking, they actually taught me on how to think and deal with stupid society. I can try to adapt. And pray hard to God to not be apart of them.

Just read Singapura dilanggar Todak classic story. It made me think on how bad our society are. How filthy and severe. I just cant. 

Our people hard to accept changes - including me.

We afraid of changes because we are too comfy at the point we are lying now. We rather to not move on than taking risks for a better future.

We are too afraid. 

Honestly thats me.

I always wanted to do something dangerous and fun but i'm afraid of the consequences- which made my life now is as plain as plain water. 

I always wanted to be a cat with 9 lives.

Thats show how coward i am.

Not to question why i was bornt in this circumstance.

And Hang Tuah

I am sad. True sad. I'm not against anything but hmm.

I am irresponsible but i still love me and accept me for who i am and always try to be a better me.

Hang Jebat.

an endangered species


I know you must be fed up with this mentality problem faced by Malaysians. 


Dirty. Whatever sides, it still dirty. Its not the politic itself, its the man under it. Blame power and money.


Extremists who are too obsessed with the path they taking part in.
I dont like extremist.
Good intentions may turnt vice if ones being too obsessed.


Wished by many, did by little


An everything key


May be somebody's purpose of living.


The only reason to keep working on things we dont like and hoping for a fortune of money.

Life partner

Dreaming of too good to be true life partner. 


Everybody's last destination in this insane world.

A world nature

Search a man who never treat you like a joke; happy for a moment and throw you apart when he doesnt need any. 

You are a woman. Every woman has a pride. Take care of yours, no one going to take care of yourself besides you. 

Make love- with yourself. Treat yourself like a girlfriend, the best company. Listen to your problems without judging yourself. Spill everything in your mind , just say whatever you want.

You may see this as a simple thing yet no effort needed. 

But not everyone can afford it - because they are afraid . Yeah, include me.

Remember that you are valuable. No matter what people say. You know yourself more than anyone else. 

Do what makes you happy. I know its easy to say but when it comes on taking action , hard.

God is fair. Everything will be paid- sooner or later. 

Dont take grudge on people who betrayed us, downgraded us, take us for granted, treat us like a trash, etc. 

Just dont!

Remember they maybe have power and money but remember, above of all Allah is always there- be with the ones who asked for His help, be with people who are betrayed.

Power and money may blind us from seeing good from bad and vice. 

Power and money can make us forget Allah.

Power and money can also be a form of test from Allah, to test His slaves.

Power and money are ruling this world. 

Power and money are everything - ridiculous.

After all....

Joke is when we know these, then power and money are what we chasing for.

We study hard to get good grades, high qualifications because we wanted to have a stable job - to get money.

Therefore, people treated us like shit when we dont have a fortune of money. People lose respect. People take us for granted- forcing us to listen every of their commands.

But what can we do?

"You dont have the money and power, so shut your mouth and listen to us. We are helping you."


Buto kau lah tolong.

I'm sorry for harsh words I just cant help myself. 

I'm tired with all your silly games. 

Of course we dont have the power to stop, we dont have a pocket full of cash to feed you, to shut your bloody mouth.

And we accept it as

A world nature.

Monday, September 1, 2014

No room for regret

I maybe late. My self-conscious attends a lil bit late than anyone else. But i keep in mind that no room for regrets in my life. I cant promise this enthusiast will last longer, but for this while i'll try my to keep it. 

So much happened to me within these 3 days that i havent write on you. Gonna steal my time on writing soon ; obviously not now I have chem paper tmr.

3 days break got me like as fast as a blink of eyes. Wahaha and i started my revision the third day after maghrib 


But as what i mentioned earlier, no room for regret. 

And happy independence day dear my lovely country. I promise to consume something for this country one day. And perhaps doing well in studies is also an achievement for country right? 

I love Malaysia <3

Friday, August 29, 2014

Not a good one

You know what? 

As I grow older, of course I've learnt a lot. 

From mistakes I made.
From people I met.
From unwanted circumstances
From books I read. 
From movies I watched.

Basically, everything happened to me had at least something to teach me lessons. If I'm lucky enough, I learnt, if I'm not, its just gonna be a piece of memory. 

I also learn to not judge quickly. Now, before I started to judge, I'll try my best to figure out WHY is that unwanted issues popping up before shallowly throw my trashy opinions and talks. I will always try to put myself in their shoes first.

Obviously, I'm not a good person but I do try. Sometimes we just cant get over ourselves; sometimes its hard to control the bad-temperaments that used to be our routines. What else we can do to put ourselves in higher hieracy in the society except for improving ourselves to a better version. One does not has to transform drastically to be a better person because I'm afraid its not be continuous. In order to change to a better person, we have to transform little by little. 

Nothings wrong about taking a drastic change, but can you afford it? 

Judging too quick somehow shows how ignorant you are towards yr surroundings. 


You never realized.

Thats what i used to experienced.

I judge way too quick. I spread unclear rumours for the sake for getting attention, liked and accepted. For the sake to be someone's first source- gossip source. I consider myself lucky if the unclear rumours i spread are true. But when the things turn upside down, i get humiliated and looked so stupid. 

Until now, i still dont get it, what is the significant of spreading false unrealistic news? Like the rumours made by irresponsible people who spread about ebola disease in Malaysia. 

And when the news reach to the crowd, everyone wants to spread the same things. They spread news that they dont even know whether it is true or not. 

But i dont blame them. Maybe they feel pleasure when they did that. 

Eh wait!

I just promised to not judge quickly 

and i just did! 

Ha ha


No intention to let anyone feeling down (my self included), but i really find this statement is true. 

I dont need any supportive word for this like 
"Undeniably true"
"So relatabily true"
"So damn it true"

No, i dont need that.

This statement made by Pistol Gang Pazzy ( who i cant tell who, i found this when i was stalking a girl who i never know her existence, either she doesnt know i really exist :p It was just a random person I stalked. Dont judge me like you never did it haha) is TRUE.