But I'm afraid
Lack of confidence
People don't look at me same anymore
People will shower me with "Whys" and "Hows"
I don't know whether I'm fully ready
Whether I'm really doing this for Allah the Almighty
Or I'm following the trend?
I just don't know
What will I reopen my hijab
What will the people say?
Imagine the reaction I got from people around me
I must be a joke to certain group of people
I'm afraid I'm not strong enough
To do this
To wear a hijab
Even though its a must in Islam
But I didn't take it as a compulsory
I don't take hijab a serious matter
I googled on 'is wearing hijab a compulsory' , 'am i still got chance to be in paradise even when i'm not wearing hijab' - and a story that convincing me is on how a prostitute enter the paradise only after she gave a thirsty dog water to drink
And a story of a lady doing all what Almighty asked her to do but then she acted ruthless to a cat - and that mistake drag her to neraka jahanam.
To be frank, i was convinced with it.
I'm fine with it.
I know one day i'm going to wear a hijab.
Its a must.
Alhamdulillah the day finally came.
And I'm happy with the new me :)
Well I only took selfies because no one wants to take pictures for me. Uwaa :'((