Monday, December 28, 2015

i smell kajang

hello final, i can't wait for you to end.

to - do list when back kajang

1. make maybank card.

2. take passport picture.

3. pursue drawing.

4. read 3 books.

5. prep for sem 2 (zz)

6. cook frequently.

7. b-mission

8. find present for baby!

9. spring clean!

Friday, December 25, 2015

aunt b

1. Salam maulidurradul.

2. Merry Christmas.

3. Guess who's now officially an aunt?

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

a self care list

1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise. 2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable. 3. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else. 4. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything. 5. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice. 6. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small. 7. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full. 8. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle. 9. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck. 10. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog. 11. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through. 13. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything. 14. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends. 15. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
— A self care list. I’ve been working on this. I promise it’s worth it.  
(via itcuddles)

Monday, December 21, 2015

stress b in action

1. i am so stress right now!

2. it's the first day of study week! i must study.

3. i'm so stress because i'm fat and ugly.

4. i'm so stress because i miss home.

5. i'm so stress because i need a lot of money to travel, to buy new phone and to album-ed all photos in my phone.

6. i'm so stress because i am really fun and nice but no one notices.

7.  i'm so stress because i know what to do but i didn't do it anyways.

8. i 'm so stress because i want to blog but i dont know how.

9. okay, right after final i'm going to share upon my experiences going to gambang waterpark with my ump bitches (not the usual ones)

here's a few teaser.

at the surau of gambang waterpark

effortfully showing our strip


Tuesday, December 15, 2015


it's a year pass 2015

nothing changed.

I am still a big fat me with abundant of passions with no way of progress.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

my ideal kind of date

You guys knew it that I've been struggle with weight issue since I was 10. Before that I had no problems relating with weight issue.

As time pass by, it's really in my mind due to the myth of fiction stories that I will be automatically slim when I grow up.

Supposed, the biggest lie any mankind could ever get,

Worse, I'm getting fatter and fatter.

thank you everyone for the hope without effort @>


Let's get to the main purpose...

My ideal kind of date.

I think it's really cute if one really can accept me for who I really am, this flawful fat B and together we work together for the ideal body.

Only, if that kind of human still exist.

It is so cute!

Imagine your partner accompanied you around & give you the spirit you need.

I really in love with that talking-about-life walk, get to know each other well in an actual meeting, face to face, not just in internet. I don't like that kind of process. Unreal.

But nahh, boys only want you when you are pretty and thin, nothing matters than that.

That's how world works.

Am i right?


Yesterday, my girls and i did some jog session..

cuz balbal got a beep test this upcoming week i guess.

I still wondering why the hell balqis ate nasi lemak at 4.45 pm when she promised herself to jog at 5.30pm. I"VE WARNED HER TO NOT TO but she's bloody hungry and wanted to diet and don't want to eat after 7 pm.

She can't exceed well the jog session BC she's semput and felt like throwing up,

Sharifah Nuraina Syed Nahar has warned you.

the amah that holding our belongings cuz she's not jogging but ended up drank our h20.
potong gaji


the struggle is real

'bobby junior' - amah, 2015

foodies #10 : nasi bajet


foodies #9 : sweeth tooth b

pau kacang

waffle cekelat

haikal treated my girls!!

thank u

smh i'm sorry boy for hating u the other day


library freak

i am now officially a nerd!

foodies #8 :treat day!

it's not the roti canai that matters,

its the breakfast at mamak!

syafiqah treated me BC i accompanied her searching for her always-lost spec.

good but i miss kajang's more

milo es

then at night, bal treated me nasi lemak for no apparent reason

nasi lemak & ayam kunyit seem weird but nahh i lahv it

another kk4 en route

going to kk4 is no longer a special treat

cuz we've been there almost every day.


so here's just another photo day of kk4 journey

which on this trip, i lost my anak tudung zzz

what a sloppy b

didnt wear contacts and just smile helplessly

kala malam bulan mengambang (perhaps)


my antique iphone 4 can still be reliable; LOOK ITS A DECENT PICTUREE

CELPIE perasan

i dont have much sal's photo

movie date at its finest

yknow, theres day when aiiman i desperately need to spend money for nothing.

nahh nothing i meant to movie!!

just both of us!

i kinda have to admit victor frankenstein is a good movie

4.5/5 stars

the batak toiket selfie


hello bijaz out theree

Sunday, December 6, 2015

starving b

5th December 2015

Mission of the day, spend nothing to food.

because only 1 buck left in my purse ha ha ha.

I succeed the mission....

until 11.30 pm, I went to Aiiman's room and constantly nagging over my concert stomach.

12.00 am 6th December 2015

I found myself and Aiiman were heading to KK4 for a meal.

from left; aiiman punya, aiiman punya, tak tahu siapa punya

hutties aiiman

derp me

After several hours of chatting and me constantly being a clown and such a bimbo (no intention), then we went back to our KK3. It's such a great night, i supposed cuz i've been dying to talk to strangers this last couple of days. Well, I like making new friends so that I can reused my same old sick jokes. 

And somehow they laughed, perhaps as a respect. 

Then we bumped into some other classmates, and I was so afraid this particular person. zzzz

Last time i met him for a project, it's already 10 pm and i claimed it's too late. Then this particular person said it's still early but of coz for girls, it's late.

And a week later,

he found me in the  midst of giggling and laughing at 2 FREAKING AM.


Regrets of the day :

1. why the hell am i GOING TO kk4 for unscrumptious kotiaw kong fu

2. bobby why u bimbo

3. bobby y u bimbo 2.0

starving b

foodies #6 : koey tiow kung-fu

it's good 

but i rated


i felt so sorry for not being able to finish this meal sobs sobs

Saturday, December 5, 2015

locked away (for real)

I used to be the star of computer/ technology.

Once ago.

But only between my family members.

There's an IT class when i was in form 1, that I constantly absence because I'm lazy & there's plenty of time I asked my friends to sign for my name, even I signed our names for the later weeks. So, this kind of irresponsible habit of mine of not attending class but the presence is in data had been exist since I was 13. But, honestly I didn't apply it in University.

Semester 1 of my diploma, computer lesson is a compulsary, with 4 credit hours. The most credit hours. I can almost swear that this is so boring and tiring and no fun at all and i hate IT.

I'm such a douchebag in the class all the time.

Yesterday, Aiiman and I went to the lab to finish our assignment 4 that was autocad based. We didn't have the software and the installation took hours.

1st session

10.10 am - 11.00 am

don't know what to do all the time, thank God, Haziemah & Umi were there to help us.

Then we were kicked out from the lab cuz there's an official class there.

I saved my work but Aiiman's not because she's too shy. IDK why, chill sis,


the second session supposed to start at 1 pm, but both of us terlajak tidur.


2nd Session

5.15 pm - 6.25 pm

with aiiman and birthday girl, Syafiqah.

- syafiqah's PC suddenly blacked out, miracle happened and it turned out normal

- aiiman forgot her email's password

- the main gate was locked, asked a gentle arab man to help us



Then, found our way to library for chem's book & straight to KK4 for tomyam-treat!


while waiting for kekman to settle her autocad

sayang <3

us ft chem book

Friday, December 4, 2015

foodies #5

budget steamboat , RM3

koey tiau tomyam 

intention first

Since I've entered university, i realized that i didnt perform well. It's so hard for me to understand what's lecturers were talking about all the time, i tend to catch myself lost in class; all the time.

Few rewinds, i think i know the cause of all this.


I pursued Chemical Engineering because of the myth that chemical engineer is going to earn well. From that day, my one and only thing that push behind me was money and wealthy, not the knowledge that I rush for, &sadly not for Allah.

Rezeki Allah di mana mana.

& i only chase for money.

All i need to do right now is to change my intention; to learn because of Allah, not blatantly for money.


Thursday, December 3, 2015

foodies #4 : chat koey teow + porridge

dangg its way too good than this weird looking photo. i swear

RM 5.00


3 sides are

-Minched meat
- carrot
- fried shallots

RM 3


Image result for iphone 6s rose gold

Wish me luck guyss, need your doa as well.


i saved RM5 by hand washing my clothes.

lesbian b

i changed my dp ws with aiiman's almost 100% zoomed in photo. Nina , my sister suddenly ws-ed asking whos on my icon, she thought aiiman is my girlfriend.

dear my beautiful sister,

i, your biological sister perhaps doesn't has any boyfriend at this time being and once ago she was a brutally brutal & tomboy &unself conscious, but she is never wanted or ever a lesbian. please have a little faith in her.

yr straight sister,

p/s : i only nganjing with aiiman, don't take it seriously xx

plus if only i'm a lesbian, 


i am no janji melayu

skyrocketed to ECM yesterday because Balqis desperately needed a new pair of sport shoe for her upcoming Lawn Bowl's tournament. She bought a Roshe the other day , then she figured out that one of her teammates had the same exact piece as she is. Then she said she needed to buy a new one.

so anakku sazali!

Salwa, our usual driver couldn't make it yesterday, so aiiman needed to find for another driver cuz none of trio of us could drive ha ha ha. Nik drove pretty fast but in a good manner cuz i'm not afraid. Aiiman be like , CAN YOU SLOW DOWN THE CARRR! haha

i actually both of them (nik & fit) some muffins but forgot to give them, then i ate it all , all by myself.

Bobby being Bobby, got vanished all the time, strayed all over ecm. nik be like "jaga bobby, jangan bagi dia hilang'

aiiman & bal both waiting on line for kfc, i asked politely onto my only desire to go to daiso, they wont allow me to so i left them behind and found for my own happiness. Got into almost every shop on that floor with such an ecstatic look, i somehow heard to laughing sound from the other side. little did i knew that both of nik & fit were staring at me whilst i was walking all alone. 

'bobby hilang lettew, tu jalan sensorang'


finally, both of them ended up late. THANK GOD!

foodies #3 : local coleslaw


#00Td 1

 Since I am now in the process of being a 'blogger', I wanted to blog everyday even when I have nothing to say.

but heyyy, i feel pretty good today with my new men's sweater I bought yesterday. You know, I've been dying for grey coloured long sleeve since forever, and finally found this good piece at a very very reasonable price.

with the most beautiful washroom (aiiman) in UMP 

my gatal face and i are inseparatable
Do i have something to say? okay perhaps it's a no! bye girls xx

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

foodies #2

iced green tea, RM 2

spicy fried mushroom, RM 3

imported from jerantut most famous laksa, aiiman's cooked, scrumptiously good

unpaid cameo

Again, an upsetting Test marks. 9/30. SO bad, so sad.

2. been sitting for chem quiz which my friends and i already knew the questions, with the help of some other guys but dangg, still cannot manage to answer it well.

3. asked mama on the approval of monthly allowance, it's such a good response from momma. xx

4. should obviously started #roadtofinal. in less than a month yawwwwwww.

5. got 53 comments on a single piece of essay because my group and i sent the un-altered one. the lecturer seems pretty upset with us especially me because i could tell that she sees potential in me :(

6. my video titas is finally done!! by ikhmal ha ha ha & i looked pretty pious but dangg in aiiman's group vidoe, i made a (stupid) cameo appearance by playing a batu seremban with my own style which is batu ketam & batu keretapi. GUYYSS WHY YOU TERGAMAK MAKE ME LIKE THIS.

Motivating mornings challenge

1. Drink a glass of water

2. Have breakfast.

3. Make a list.

4. Get moving.

5. Make time fore creativity.