Showing posts with label Motivation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Motivation. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

towards an engineer material

Supposed to be seating for 2 quizzes today, but Chemistry quiz got cancelled. Walah. Means more time to study Chemistry especially Alkene, I just started with the introduction part. There much much more on on physical properties, naming it, cis trans, e z nomenclature, preparations, substitutions and others more. I incapable of covering the Alkene because I was paying attention on Material & Energy Balance (MEB). Even there are only 2 questions, open booked, 50 minutes BUT I swear it's not easy! Killer subject I guess.

I hope I don't bore you with my engineering stuff, because as for what I'm thinking this is one of the ways for me plant the engineering spirit in me which I lacked most, for an engineering student. LOL. I'm mentioning engineering quite so much.

You know what, I read fiction, particularly chick-flick. I love words. I love flowery words, idioms, metaphors and almost every literature language. But in engineering, the shorter and straight to the point without idioms and simile, the more engineering material you are. Which in this case, I'm having most issue with. As I oathed myself that I will try hard to be apart of engineering family, I came out with several ideas on becoming 'engineer material'.

1. I should will stop reading fictions. lol. i should stop reading chick-flick-too-good-to-be-true tales. So, byebye Sophie Kinsella, Lindsey Kelk & my fav character, Rebecca Bloomwood.

2. I will read more science fictions.

3. I will get involved in intergalactic adventures; Star Wars, Star Trek, you named it.

4. I will wear less pink <-- irrelevant cuz I'm not a p!nKy guRl

5. Try to be less feminine.

6. Here come the best idea, instead of reading chick-flick, i replaced it with reading thesis. zzzz

7. Do more maths.

8. Be a geek.

9. Write a blog post like an engineer. Straight to the points, state issue, explain problems, come out suggestions, do calculations, conclude, no feelings, robotic, perfectionist, plain, boring, dull, not cheeky.


Thats it.


Tuesday, December 22, 2015

a self care list

1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise. 2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable. 3. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else. 4. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything. 5. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice. 6. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small. 7. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full. 8. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle. 9. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck. 10. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog. 11. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through. 13. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything. 14. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends. 15. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
— A self care list. I’ve been working on this. I promise it’s worth it.  
(via itcuddles)

Monday, August 3, 2015

Day 2 : Wake me up!

Told Ameera that I am feeling demotivated and feeling like give up life. I am feeling incomplete, my chest feel narrowed.

Then she gave me this picture and ask whether did i feel anything after seeing this picture.


It's a nature to feel incomplete, desire to want more and feeling never enough.

Monday, April 13, 2015

Words #2

"In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay in a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person we are. So just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories. But never ever does second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you're going."

Friday, April 10, 2015

100 Happy Days Challenge

Obviously, I am jobless right now and don't have any plan on searching for job. I was thinking to have a break for this time being while waiting for any offer on pursuing tertiary education. Gosh just look at my writing skill  -..-

Since I do nothing other than eating, sleeping and watching TV, i decided to take this #100HappyDays Challenge.

It's so simple. All you have to do is sharing at least a pic a day on things that make you happy on your preferred social networks. Most of the people who take this challenge use Instagram and Twitter as their platform, but of course this stubborn bobby make her no-followers blog as her platform. Whatever that makes me happy and you can't stop me doing things that makes me happy.

71% people failed this challenge.

Because they do have a packed life schedule ; unlike me. HAHAHA.

So the point is, I am going to post this challenge blatantly here.

Get ready to cope with my annoyingness. kehkehkeh.



Sunday, August 10, 2014

I am strong!

I am pathetic! No one said so, perhaps not directly to me but I know I am pathetic. I feel pathetic. I feel empty. Emptiness taking over me since few months ago. I don't know what I've done wrong. Everything turns to a whole disaster when it comes to me. 

I'm a sinner. I know I'm a sinner. I don't need anyone to come , meet me and saying I'm not a sinner because I know its all a lie. 

I'm a hater. And I visibly know that hater gonna hate. 

Everything is so messed up.

My life is serabut.

I hate to admit it but I need a new life. New circumstance. New country. New people to meet. I know that I supposed to not say it because it will never happened. Even when its happen one day, I am pretty sure I will response with "I miss my old life".

If only I could turnt back time, I promise I will not choose what I've chose. I will not 
come by the path I already passed now. It's hurt. I don't know what I'm not happy about but all I know is I'm not whole-heartedly happy. 

If only I could turnt back time, I promise to treat people nicely ; no matter how I dislike them for no valid reason. I promise to take every oppurtunity served in front of me once. I promise to not be annoying as how I am now. I promise to read more books. I promise to not raise my voice to anyone. I promise I will sit in front of the laptop for hours, doing insignificant things that slowly ruined my life and turnt be to a whole disgusting creature. 

I promise I will not be ignorant as I used to be.

Now, I have to pay the price for every mistake I've done ; intentionally or unintentionally. I have to continue my life,
swallow the bitter pill called reality.


I also need to remember that nothings too late. I'm only 16, by mean, I'm turning 17 next 15th August. My journey is still long. I supposed to not gave up and lose to life.

I must be strong! 

I can be strong!

I am strong!



Saturday, August 9, 2014

You are special

" A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20?"
Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you - but first, let me do this."
He proceeded to crumple the 20 dollar note. He then asked, " Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.
"Well," he then replied, "What if I do this?" He dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty, "Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends , you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless; but no matter what happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. 
Dirt or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who love you. The worth of our lives comes, not in what we do or who we know, but by ... WHO WE ARE.

You are special - don't ever forget it."