Showing posts with label Random talk. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Random talk. Show all posts

Sunday, March 20, 2016

sexy so noks

Early this morning, my squad and I needed to go to UMP Pekan for our SoftSkill Intelligence Spiritual Talk. Just a 2-hour session of talking and teaching about what is IQ, EQ and IS. You know, usual softskill stuff.

The talk started in 8.30 am. It approximately took about 1 hour to go to UMP Pekan and we got ready very very early. Despite the fact I slept at 5, I still managed to woke up and get ready on time. But like always, I left behind because I need to refill my very very useful functional 'Sexy' (sexy is my bottle name. FYI, i named most of my things according to their appearances, how judgmental i am haha). My Sexy is very functional because it can content up to 1.5 liter of water compared to only 0.5 liter inside on Pinky (Pinky is my ex bottle. She missing in action. I did make a series of  search and rescue plan, but the odd is not in our favour. Since nowadays Malaysia is very very hot for the Ekuinoks, we, Malaysians need to drink a lot of water. I bring my sexy everywhere, Even to shopping malls! She's very functional because she's not only fed her beautiful cute owner, but also her monkey friends. I actually an official water sponsor to my friends. They are all very lazy to bring bottle everywhere. Balqis got a cutie Jinny (green tupperware I named Jinny), Balqis doesnt care if i want to borrow Jinny,but she will never bring it for herself. Very lazy meh.

I was behind Aiiman and Balqis for about 3 minutes. Salwa already took the car and fetch Haziq in front of KK2. She then asked us to wait in front of our hostel. I again, chose the wrong entrance zzz. While waiting for both Sal and Haziq we took OOTDs with a lot of typical poses. 

The original plan was that Salwa cannot drive in a long distance so thats why we brought along Haziq but then suddenly salwa wanted to drive.The journey went well. Like usual she drove a little fast. 

Then

about 5 more minutes to reach UMP Pekan

the kancil in front us suddenly want to turn right without giving signal. An emergency break was hit. 

We were done, then only

the car behind us crash on us.

I was holding my Sexy, full with liquid. The impact made quarter of the liquid flew out from the bottle and wet the entire living mechanisms in the car. The most obvious one was Balqis, her entire tudung is splashed with water.

The inertia produced made us first jumped a little and then landing harder on back. 

Like always, Aiiman will non - stop with her nags as only her pain receptors working but not us. Like always also, no one gave a fuck because bigger thing to look forward.

The back bonnet dents. The infront bonnet of the causer dents harder. 

Both are rented car but our owner was salwa's close acquaintance unlike the other one was strict.

........

After finished with the talk, then only we discovered that the car unable to get started.

My friends and I vaining around under the sunlight, yeap I am frickin burnt!

from 1040 till 1400.

YOU CAN IMAGINE!




while waiting for a savior

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Let's choose to ignore!

Insecurities. Girls are very insecure, it's like a girl-nature to get insecured in almost everything. My insecurities lead to a series of linked mental-health problems. You know, anxious & bipolar-disorder. My insecurities is resulted on over-jealousy and over-thinking. I overthink, most of the time. I always wanted to be the best, I want no people beat me in my major. I want to be the best, the only best, the most special human creature every one ever met. I try hard to be that girl. I hate mainstream, except for One Direction. They are the only mainstream I love and honestly there's time I want to not love /like them but I can't. I hate trends because they are mainstream. I don't do ig because well yes

1. I insecure.

2. I don't have a real amazing life to share.

3. I hate mainstream.

4. I hate competition.


This wild guess and the tendency of this guess to be true is about 99.97% to be true, probably the reason why I don't commit in any relationship is because of this negative trait of mine. I am a jealous girl. And insecure. And overthinking. Somehow, I chose to ignore all that and focus more on being a better version of myself cuz if i keep thinking aboot it i'm going to be terribly sad and my bipolar will strike all over again, that's sucks dude! I'm up to no kidding!

Yes, a healthy relationship requires all these all plus and minus. If jealousy is conveyed as love than how about open-mindedness? Less love? and What about over-jealous-towards-every-single-thing-and-every-girl-wants-my-bf?  Over love? Too love? heh. for me it's just a sign of an unstable mind.

Doesn't make any sense!

On the other hand, I myself have to think from another side of the coin. Everyone fights a battle we having no idea about.

BTW

I was hired as an actress!

for one of my classmate project.

But nahh, I wasn't born as an actress (well not for an unpopular school project, I was born for Hollywood! ha ha ha). I unmanaged to deliver the simplest lines and laughed all way long. Ah Gawd, he recorded it all my stupid laughs! Bij, don't hit the play and please delete my role! I'm afraid he's going to use it against me to blackmail me when i one day becoming famous.


It's a wrap! 

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

towards an engineer material

Supposed to be seating for 2 quizzes today, but Chemistry quiz got cancelled. Walah. Means more time to study Chemistry especially Alkene, I just started with the introduction part. There much much more on on physical properties, naming it, cis trans, e z nomenclature, preparations, substitutions and others more. I incapable of covering the Alkene because I was paying attention on Material & Energy Balance (MEB). Even there are only 2 questions, open booked, 50 minutes BUT I swear it's not easy! Killer subject I guess.

I hope I don't bore you with my engineering stuff, because as for what I'm thinking this is one of the ways for me plant the engineering spirit in me which I lacked most, for an engineering student. LOL. I'm mentioning engineering quite so much.

You know what, I read fiction, particularly chick-flick. I love words. I love flowery words, idioms, metaphors and almost every literature language. But in engineering, the shorter and straight to the point without idioms and simile, the more engineering material you are. Which in this case, I'm having most issue with. As I oathed myself that I will try hard to be apart of engineering family, I came out with several ideas on becoming 'engineer material'.

1. I should will stop reading fictions. lol. i should stop reading chick-flick-too-good-to-be-true tales. So, byebye Sophie Kinsella, Lindsey Kelk & my fav character, Rebecca Bloomwood.

2. I will read more science fictions.

3. I will get involved in intergalactic adventures; Star Wars, Star Trek, you named it.

4. I will wear less pink <-- irrelevant cuz I'm not a p!nKy guRl

5. Try to be less feminine.

6. Here come the best idea, instead of reading chick-flick, i replaced it with reading thesis. zzzz

7. Do more maths.

8. Be a geek.

9. Write a blog post like an engineer. Straight to the points, state issue, explain problems, come out suggestions, do calculations, conclude, no feelings, robotic, perfectionist, plain, boring, dull, not cheeky.

10. WATCH TBBT!

Thats it.

Ciao.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

a coward b

Consistency. There's time when I actually can read, study, doing sudoku, watching TBBT and write a post. But, I'm afraid whether can I do the same exact things tomorrow for the sake of consistency. I am a very dependable to an emotion or uncatogarized thing called 'mood' and voluntary. I hate to do things I don't want to do, things I don't give a fuck on, et cetera.

However

Life is not always going the way you wanted it to be. Plans are somehow just a plain written words on a piece of paper; no any specific meanings, no longer a guide towards a dreamy life. Some circumstances left us no choice except for just go through it.

I actually don't really know what's wrong with me. Me and my engineering course story is like in an endless tale of love-hate relationship. Whenever I faced hardships in studies, I blamed engineering. Whenever I met an un-nice human, I blamed engineering. Whenever I found myself problems ; I blamed you-know-what. It's sometimes not even related to you-know-what.

The first place I took this course is because I think in future I will not regret. It's once a lifetime offer and both my mom and dad were over the moon the day of my UPU result came out. Unable to make them disappointed, I grab this chance. Oh for my goodness sake, am I blaming my parents?

See how coward this B.

May one day, I got back what I missed.

Monday, December 21, 2015

stress b in action

1. i am so stress right now!

2. it's the first day of study week! i must study.

3. i'm so stress because i'm fat and ugly.

4. i'm so stress because i miss home.

5. i'm so stress because i need a lot of money to travel, to buy new phone and to album-ed all photos in my phone.

6. i'm so stress because i am really fun and nice but no one notices.

7.  i'm so stress because i know what to do but i didn't do it anyways.

8. i 'm so stress because i want to blog but i dont know how.

9. okay, right after final i'm going to share upon my experiences going to gambang waterpark with my ump bitches (not the usual ones)

here's a few teaser.

at the surau of gambang waterpark

effortfully showing our strip
<3
XX
B.

WISH ME LUCK FOR MY FINALSS!

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

my ideal kind of date

You guys knew it that I've been struggle with weight issue since I was 10. Before that I had no problems relating with weight issue.

As time pass by, it's really in my mind due to the myth of fiction stories that I will be automatically slim when I grow up.

Supposed, the biggest lie any mankind could ever get,

Worse, I'm getting fatter and fatter.

thank you everyone for the hope without effort @>

.......

Let's get to the main purpose...

My ideal kind of date.

I think it's really cute if one really can accept me for who I really am, this flawful fat B and together we work together for the ideal body.

Only, if that kind of human still exist.

It is so cute!

Imagine your partner accompanied you around & give you the spirit you need.

I really in love with that talking-about-life walk, get to know each other well in an actual meeting, face to face, not just in internet. I don't like that kind of process. Unreal.

But nahh, boys only want you when you are pretty and thin, nothing matters than that.

That's how world works.

Am i right?

.......

Yesterday, my girls and i did some jog session..

cuz balbal got a beep test this upcoming week i guess.

I still wondering why the hell balqis ate nasi lemak at 4.45 pm when she promised herself to jog at 5.30pm. I"VE WARNED HER TO NOT TO but she's bloody hungry and wanted to diet and don't want to eat after 7 pm.

She can't exceed well the jog session BC she's semput and felt like throwing up,


Sharifah Nuraina Syed Nahar has warned you.


the amah that holding our belongings cuz she's not jogging but ended up drank our h20.
potong gaji

kuikuikui

the struggle is real

'bobby junior' - amah, 2015

Monday, July 20, 2015

random b

1. Which one is worse, to wait for something unsure or to express then broke our fragile heart?

2. " And in the end, we were all just humans..drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness." - F.Scott Fitzgerald

3. Don't confuse busy and productivity- we are all busy dealing life but not all achieve productivity.

4. Arguments less occur when girl not interested.

5. Coffee shops/ cafe are where people discuss business and life.

6. Leopard printed shawl I bought last week is now my favorite shawl- blame Dewi Yusra.

7. Normal 4 hrs of download turning into 1 minute when you are using UMP's internet (( not every time))

8. Be a calmer girl ; idiolize Kyra.

9. To not share any unsure occurence with anyone. or even share good news with others. Not everyone has heart as you.

10. You'll look classier when you reduce joking ((correspond fun)). Conclusion : The classier you be, the less fun in you.

Its like

Choose one

A. Classy
B. Jovial

11. Not to annoy people with phone calls ; you can simply know how important you are then.

12. Don't beg people.

13. Be true to yourself.

14, Don't laugh while talking.

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Random talk

1. Suddenly, anxiety attacked me when i watched spm tutor tv on lisa surihani's tips for spm. Omg i'm scared. Okay lets not talk about spm because that is nerve breaking. Dup dap dup dap.

2. I have totally ditch my twitter and  deleted instagram app on my phone (plus my 16gb phone couldnt bear too much, its a SIGN! New pHoneee!). But i still hang on facebook to keep on touch with current issues, i dont want to be such a total douchebag for knowing NOTHING what happens around the world. Furthermore, everything is knowledge and might help me broadened my mind (and somehow broadened my shoulder at the meantime hahaha)

3.  Another viral video i found early this morning was a 3 minutes duration video a 9 year old boy singing the song relakan jiwa while playing a guitar. I was amazed. He's so freaking talented and has such an amazing voice. Then, i hooked through the comments , wanted to see what people think about that video. And you guessed it right, people are bashing that small boy. Saying that he should recite quran instead of singing. Oh mayn! You are not with him 24/7, how did you know he shouldnt recite quran. Omg! I just cant. How negative these people are. Ish ish ish.

4. Thats all for this post. Really hope you guys living a beautiful life <3